one day i will stand alone

My failure kills me. I want to be this independant person who can completley cope. I can. But i am a liability. Every time something happens I am so embarassed. Having to call someone up ask for help. It hurts so much. It points out how pathetic I am. I'm just a pet who plays at growing up but stillneeds to grow up. I need someone for everything. And yes it;s not my fault but I could stop these things from hapening if I just took some time to think. If i was sensible. Ohhh to being sensible. But sensible would kill me.