Ice Cream in the rain

Eating ice cream in the rain again. Small pleasure trying to prove that the actual isn't happening. Sunlight streams in and warmth radiates. Melting in my mouth the temperature outside is not pleasant but at least I can pretend. It just looks to good to ignore. Ice cream has to be cold. The melted stuff just is not as good. So maybe the rain helps? Just hard when you have to huddle. I would rather be bathing in brilliance. Tired of greyness. The red strawberry and rich chocolate add colour at least. It is something about the tub, the spoon, the holiday feel. Is it possible that ice cream makes my life better? Or is this just another failed attempt at happiness?

Birthday tarts for the the queen of hearts. :)

Happy Birthday to my wonderful, beautiful sister Eleanor.
She is 17 today and we had a great time together picknicking and eating cake in patisserie valerie :)
Eleanor as always looked stunning and sophisticated, I on the other hand massively failed as I frogot to pack my outfit and had to wear my sweaty gym clothes. Oh well there is more to life than jumpsuits and the sun certainly made up for it.
I wonder what she wished for?

My present

make a wish

wished...

I do like a nice bit of eclair :)

... for all the times I had to endure the Simpson's when I lived at home and Eleanor ruled the TV. BIG LOVE

tea time for hendrix

Defenately my drink of 2010. Delicate and extraudinary. A drink of most unusual stature... NOT to mention extremley alcoholic!

And especially special when drunk from a teacup...

COCKTAIL RECIPE (multiply as needed)

10ml of elderflower cordial
50ml Hendix gin
100ml of Apple juice
Cucumber
Lemon
Ice


Or simply drink alone, with lemonade, tonic e.t.c

NO HANGOVER!
MAGIC!
xxx

playing the domestic goddess...

So here they are... Ican safely say over christmas I officially went mad. I actually made some cookies for Alex... AND DECORATED THEM!
This is not me!
Who have I become?
haha....
I a defenately no cake maker but here we go... some cupcake cookies complete with decorative box.
For some reason Alex bought me some cookie mix for christmas (is he trying to whip me into shape) and well... it filled half an hour of my time..and as a one off was fun!
I felt proud...
...and if I make the cupcakes.. who knows what I get in return? (wink wink)

for my sister...

to prove the flake advert is nothing in conparison.
Alexander was a genious. Enough said.
Yes THIS is completely mesmorising and in CONTEXT.
Beatiful, disturbing, trascendent; ART.
Once again the world of advertising and money has sold it'soul. I think t doesn't even work as an advert anyway. Way tooo deep and disturbing.

On not having a camera.... (and reading)

I just spent the whole of Reading festival whithout a camera... whithout taking a single picture... without stepping back for a second. This is not me!
I am telling you it was hard... I gazed at things loningly... wishing to magic a camera in thin air; a pile of rubbish that looked like a corpse, licking flames, seas of mud, spotty socks.... but to no avail!Thse pictures are stuck in my mind.
I decided uite erly n to not take eithr of my SLR's ..this would be stupid, although, lookingback I feel like nothing woul have happened to them I wouldn;t have been able to mosh to gallows, stand in the rain, roll on the floor... do anything whithout risking my cameras life! I did attempt at taking an old compact camera but it didn; work and after a breaf moment of error I decided to challenge myself and yes I am pleased I survived. Actually, it as probably a good thing for the rest of he world; no enless pictures of me and alex documnting our looks!
On Reading.... Ok it was Reading! nortunatey the ay before I went and the day I went it rained and it fucking poured... I dreaded it..stepping into the mud.. beign continuosly cold, sleepingin a deep brown sludgy mess... and yes was liek this but I had alex to kep me going. I can not explain how lovely it was tosnuggle up in a tent with the person you love knowing that if it wasn't for him you would be hating every second instead of feeling comfortably warm inside.
Reading passed incredily quickly... I flited between tipsy and sober danced, danced, danced.
Highlights would be the incredible Adam Green who's theatricallnes live is unmissable. He as amazing! A "cabaret strokes"... utterly hilarious! Libertines took my breath away! Oh Pete is amazing a absolute genious but one prolem; why is he getting so massively fat? I know it is politically horrible but he is starting to look like he has Down's Syndrome??? Sorry!!!
Arcade Fire where spell binding... everyone was still a total silent audience swept in by their magic. Unfortunately Alex missed them! Being us.. we are bith way too emotional and the tiredness and hunger cret in and Alex freaked out when he couldn't find me and missed the whole set. I feel terrible because they are his favourite and I spent the vast majority of it in silent tears but all is mended apart from the fact that he missed one of the best gigs I have ever been to!
Fools gold and Harlem where lovely... aart fom the ound levls all wrong! Gallows mad! Yes " I ain't know puss and am mental!" I divied into the crow fully attired in roses and threw myself about to my hearts contenet... went down down down and up up up. Caribou my knew favourite band... were good but not as good as at Field Day and The Drums...unfortuantly I would rather not mention them!
I moaned about stid things light heartedley but had a fab time... emotionally it was a rollercoasted but so is my life. Me and Alex were well me and Alex...
unftuantely occasionally we turn into not me and Alex and that is when the problems start... we are determined to changead sort out our ridiculous moods and destructive behaviour. We love each ther more than anything ..unfortunately ocassinally we feel too much! lso unfortuanely we are bith extrememley skinny adn our most notable problem is hunger. Despite stuffing myself with crisps, nuts, chocolate, fruit, sweets, coffee, cheese, chips, chilli, noodles, chicken and crepes... as much food as I could get my hands on... (Plus the alchohol) I still mamaged to loose five pounds in four days and ws constantly starving. I have this problem wher eI just need to eat and eat and eat! Alex on th other had..just an;t be bothered to eat... or gets beligerant and wot.. thisis when our bodies get desperate and we "loose" it. At least we know this....
But hey I had a fab time.. and here is to mud, starvation, smelly toilets, arguments.,spilt drinks. love, tent sex, being lost, overpriced food, over emotions, tiredness, alcohol, fires, sore feet, snuggling, wetness, coldness, talking, dancing and fucking good music!!!

happy birthday cake

nothing says birtday like a yummy cake :)
i never got one :(
but then i got jelly and ice cream...
mind you was rather tempted by these profiteroles from patisserie valerie i did have a little nibble but too not would have been torture.. i love yummy food far too much and chocolate... although nNOT better than sex it is just delectible...
i eat far too much of it and if i haven't had any in a day.... i feel deprived!

This cake is ART

queing

Food shopping is strange. I wonder what you can tell?
My shopping... a bottle of vodka
red bull
coke
a tin of spaghetti

the personbehind me ... 40 white loeaves of bread