The end of 2010..the beginning of 2011

As 2010 draws to a close it is time to reflect and note dn a few memories or special times, special people..
Some highlights...

• The beginning of th year started with the death of my Grandma. It was a horribly sad time but she will be remembered forever. I have many great memories and she was the best, loveliest Grandma ever.
• A lovely valentines day wih a trip to the Aquariam and a meal... believe it or not the first time I uttered the words I love you... now i say it all the time and have had the best (mostly) year with Wolfie. 2011 will be the start of our second year together and there should be many more to come. He saved my life.
• Finishing Art Foundationat CSM and having a fantastic end of year exhibition...developing as an artist.
• Being accepted onto BAFine Art and starting it.
• A wonderful birthday in Regents Park and The Rainforest Cafe
• Taking part in an exhibition on Brick Lane... "Something at the Rag Factory"
• Internship for The White Cube making art for Kiefer.
• A wonderful day for Wolfie's birthday at London Zoo (the second this year)
• Mothers day with both our mums (mine  and Wolfie)
• Lion King at the theatre with my dad, kate and Lulu... the second time.
• Foals with Ed and Foals with Wolfie.
• Peter Pan, Shun-Kin and The Imaginary Life of Edgar Allen Poe at the barbican theatre.
• The Monster Ball with Lady Gaga, getting engaged to Wolfie and staying in a hotel.
• Engagement tattoos
• Caribou and more at Field Day
• Arriving at Reading pouringwith rain bt being able to hae a tent with Wolfie.
• Most of Reading! minus the breakdowns! Libertines, Caribou, Arcade Fire, The Drums, Adam Green
• Adam Green at The Troxy and more...
• An amazing holiday with my Mum Sister and Wolfie in Andalucia.... Caves, Bullfight...Running into the sea at night naked!
• Crash exhibition at the Gargosian
• Surrealist house exhibition
• Show studio exhibition
• Starting rehersals for the play Rhinoceros
• Going  to see my old theatre company in Guildford with "Charlie's Empire"
• "The man who fell to earth" in a grotty pub on commercial street
• A meal for my mums birthday with my sister
• Joining  the best gym ever!
• Mine and Wolfies year anniversary and All Stars Meal
• Protesting for education
• Snow
• The best christmas ever!
• Many nights at forty winks
• Many Parties
• Many people
• Many adventures

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
xxxx

tea time for hendrix

Defenately my drink of 2010. Delicate and extraudinary. A drink of most unusual stature... NOT to mention extremley alcoholic!

And especially special when drunk from a teacup...

COCKTAIL RECIPE (multiply as needed)

10ml of elderflower cordial
50ml Hendix gin
100ml of Apple juice
Cucumber
Lemon
Ice


Or simply drink alone, with lemonade, tonic e.t.c

NO HANGOVER!
MAGIC!
xxx

playing the domestic goddess...

So here they are... Ican safely say over christmas I officially went mad. I actually made some cookies for Alex... AND DECORATED THEM!
This is not me!
Who have I become?
haha....
I a defenately no cake maker but here we go... some cupcake cookies complete with decorative box.
For some reason Alex bought me some cookie mix for christmas (is he trying to whip me into shape) and well... it filled half an hour of my time..and as a one off was fun!
I felt proud...
...and if I make the cupcakes.. who knows what I get in return? (wink wink)

saying hello

After a couple of days in the country (ok not really the country the suburbs... but ther are fields and hills) I must admit the change is unbearable. Life is so different. So boring. Everything is over by 5pm... but there are a few things that are generally fantastic.

1. The air... I love to be outside and here it is fresher.
2. The sleep... I have a proper bed.
3. The appreciation of other places.
4. The dogs!
5. The trees...
6. Actually having a house and not cheap food!

....
BUT have you noticed how if you walk past someone on a lane you alway say hello... merry christmas! Strangers are more friendly. I guess in London ther are just too many busy people to say hello to.... but it makes me feel good :)

Stick boy and match girl in love

Stick Boy liked Match Girl,
He liked her a lot.
He liked her cute figure,
He thought she was hot.

But could a flame ever burn
For a match and a stick ?
It did quite literally;
He burned up pretty quick.

by Tim Burton


.... love is a dangerous affair but being caught in the flame is worth the pain :)!

slangers and gash...

Picture from Change Fashion taken at
FOSTERCARE ✖ Mater Suspiria Vision ✖ WELC☹ME TO THE WI✟CH HOUSE
Slangers and Gash? It says it all (about us)! I love the secrets in photos... the unoticed noticed... BRILLIANT!

the first christmas

I simply had a wonderful christmas day! Really, honestly the best christmas I have had since I was a very very little girl. I don't meant to sound scroogey I love christmasy things but over the years I really have learnt to hate christmas day! This year made all the difference.
Since I was six i spent christmas half way between my mums and my dads untill i was a teenager... a christmas of car journeys, when I became a teenager christmas was tense because of my own difficulties... I wanted to enjoy it but I always caused the problem; always threw a tantrum or caused a desperate argument... it was too stressful. Christmas was a boring day spent being bored and feeling suffocated and fearful... then last year... although a special christmas, one to be remebered, was a deeply sad time. Last year was the last year my grandma, someone for whom christmas was christmas. We woke up at 6 in the morning and travelled to Oxford to spend Christmas day in hospital with my wonderful grandma pam, the most fantastic Grandma anyone could wish for. She was very frail and had declined rapidly, it was a humbling moving and saddening day but I am so happy i got to see her before she died. I will remember her forever and ever as a beautiful beautiful young at heart lady.

Anyway thank you for this Christmas. Thank you Wolfie (Alex) for making this perfect, thank you for being there, thank you for my lovely presents, thank you for making me outstandingly happy. Thank you his family for being lovely. Thank you my family for being wonderful and my best friends with amazing presents, amazing food and a lovely Christmas. And well done me... because I have changed and grown (because of these people) and now I can do Christmas and enjoy it!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

happy christmas eve....

I get to spend mine with my star boy wolfie and can't wait to wake up with him on christmas day :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS

welcome to the world of toys...

Taking my little sister to Hamley's was one of the best bits of christmas so far. She had never been before and the reaction, for a serious child, was astounding. I barely et to see her and Hamley's was magical. She loved it... but still I am the bigger child!

Toys are magic let us get lost in a land of make believe. PLEASE. PLEASE. PLEASE

                             

Mouth open amazement!

Evil Ice Queen

Look my balloon!

Hello my name is Dragon!

Christmas wishes!

Oh how lovely it is to be a child!

bed of roses

someone please stop me drinking...

sitting in the sink

nothing like a narcasistic toilet moment....

Blood nymph

Blood drips

Sickly scents of sacred sapphire


                                                      Streams.


Her blood drops
                        Diving and dreaming
Beautiful Blindness


An
     END to the suffering
The search for sensation

To be loved

To be loved

To be loved

The purpose to be loved.

                                     The pain dissipated with the scarlet poison as it stains the white
page

Page after page.
A search for some kind of soul
To cling to
                To live.


TRANSCENDENT BLISS

She cries
She screams
BLISS






No feeling.






Ancient ancient dazed marble veins
Bloodless blood
Pureness Cleansed
Pureness Cleansed


Censored Pureness

snow message

mistletoe kisses

KISS
KISS

KISS

KISS

If a couple in love exchanges a kiss under the mistletoe, it is interpreted as a promise to marry, as well as a prediction of happiness and long life...

... you would have thought then that the whole world would be happy, long living and married?

... I just like kissing!
xxx

                                                                        

Shabba-dabba-da VII

more fun and games in shades...



... and I can't wait!

ghost

The witch

I HAVE walked a great while over the snow,

And I am not tall nor strong.

My clothes are wet, and my teeth are set,

And the way was hard and long.

I have wandered over the fruitful earth,

But I never came here before.

Oh, lift me over the threshold, and let me in at the door!

The cutting wind is a cruel foe.

I dare not stand in the blast.

My hands are stone, and my voice a groan,

And the worst of death is past.

I am but a little maiden still,

My little white feet are sore.

Oh, lift me over the threshold, and let me in at the door!

Her voice was the voice that women have,

Who plead for their heart's desire.

She came--she came--and the quivering flame

Sunk and died in the fire.

It never was lit again on my hearth

Since I hurried across the floor,

To lift her over the threshold, and let her in at the door.

by MARY ELIZABETH COLERIDGE (1861 - 1907)

Come along to afe because you should...

This Friday
The Victoria
Fab music and dress up
Awesome crowd
plus WOLFIE is DJing..... yay



The Victoria
435 Queensbridge Road
London, United Kingdom

Friday 17th at 21:00 untill 2:00am!!!
FREE ENTRY

A NIGHTMARE BEFORE CHRISTMAS!!!

my favourite place in london...

...because it is SO FUCKED!

THE YOUR MUM'S HOUSE VIDEO IS FINALLY HERE!


....and it is bloody good!
xxxx

Copa Cabana- by Liza Manelli (Muppet Show Segment)

haha
the best!

Turbulent

by Shiran Nishat


SOUND
POWERFUL
SCREAM

D- Day ..DOWN WITH THE GOVERMENT!

Ok so parliament voted on tuition fees and suprise suprise... as we all knew they had and have the power to win the battle (as of yet!). It defenately comes as no shock that the ridiculous british goverment that is the tory-lib coalition today chose to save their own Eton arses and not back the people.

You have to ask the question" is this really a free country?" ... when clearly what the mass and vast vast majority of the population thinks is NOT represented by our leaders.

The vote won with 323 to 302 votes .... yes a narrow loss... but that doesn't matter... it is a loss anyway and a loss of rights, of culture, knowledge, privilege and peace.

What can we do?
One answer really... this means war! The goverment has declared its self as an enemy to the people and we the people must take our country and prove that we have the balls, the intelligence and we do enfact have the power. We are not ants to be stamped on. We have our brains and we want our education. The goverments war (Iraq) mess is not our fault or our choice... the money must come from their pockets (the goverment- yes labour as well!). Consider the money spent on the royal wedding? The govermental members stylists! (for crying out loud!)? The houses? Their luxurious food? ... this is not important and a disgrace. The people must rule!

POWER TO THE PEOPLE
DOWN WITH THE GOVERMENT
CAPILIST CUNTS
ANARCHY IN THE UK

constallation

AQUA

Attempting to christmas shop (i failed to buy anything) stumbled across a new boutique in caranby street called AQUA. The clothes are divine!! Please please please...
Christmas wish!!!!
I want this wardrobe...