Flow

I don't know just where I'm going
But I'm gonna try for the kingdom, if I can
'Cause it makes me feel like I'm a man
When I put a spike into my vein
And I'll tell ya, things aren't quite the same
When I'm rushing on my run
And I feel just like Jesus' son
And I guess that I just don't know
And I guess that I just don't know

I have made the big decision
I'm gonna try to nullify my life
'Cause when the blood begins to flow
When it shoots up the dropper's neck
When I'm closing in on death
And you can't help me not, you guys
And all you sweet girls with all your sweet talk
You can all go take a walk
And I guess that I just don't know
And I guess that I just don't know

I wish that I was born a thousand years ago
I wish that I'd sail the darkened seas
On a great big clipper ship
Going from this land here to that
In a sailor's suit and cap
Away from the big city
Where a man can not be free
Of all of the evils of this town
And of himself, and those around
Oh, and I guess that I just don't know
Oh, and I guess that I just don't know

Heroin, be the death of me
Heroin, it's my wife and it's my life
Because a mainer to my vein
Leads to a center in my head
And then I'm better off than dead
Because when the smack begins to flow
I really don't care anymore
About all the Jim-Jim's in this town
And all the politicians makin' busy sounds
And everybody puttin' everybody else down
And all the dead bodies piled up in mounds

'Cause when the smack begins to flow
Then I really don't care anymore
Ah, when the heroin is in my blood
And that blood is in my head
Then thank God that I'm as good as dead
Then thank your God that I'm not aware
And thank God that I just don't care
And I guess I just don't know
And I guess I just don't know

I couldn't bring myself to put up Pavarotti!..

I think this song is a victim of its brilliance. There's been too many awful collaborations and too many connotations made... but it is beautiful.

youth perfection...

pure beauty

Perfect nonsense...

Is ir the same thing with you?
(pause)... Then you should talk!
Talk like time, curioser and curioser.
Mix you words and look and sing.

It's beautiful. It's wretched.

STOP ALICE STOP
Two days more and the fury will come
...
"OH" I see!
It's that man he talks in riddles.
You know it just isn't the same anymore...
It's well.... It's you!

Feeling alive

I absolutely love living here, I feel incredibly lucky. I know I am so so so lucky.
I have london all around me and it just makes me feel alive. Walking out on to Brick Lane makes me feel like I can breathe again. It is exciting and for once I think I belong. I love the people. The things people do. I just like looking at evverything. Kittens, dancing ladies, records and sequins. I don't feel like I am in the naughties I feel like I can do what I want and I don't care what people think. Anyway I have permission to be wierd.
I love how I am living. I can't bear the thought of going back to how it was. I think I will die sometimes but I know this is what will make me survive.
No sleep, Stay in bed, Sunday morning, Harmonicas, Tower Bridge, Chocolate and Cream, Waves, Lights, Red phone boxes, Knives and Pizza. I don't know... I am confused about today. I am scared incase it all goes wrong. I think we established I destroy everything. But I know I can't stop smiling :)

the story of my life...

back to this

this song defined my life for a very long time...

Love
I'm sorry
xxx