Tuesday, 10 November 2009

Adam and Eve were naked in the garden of eden.. they only put on clothes after they'd sinned...

The Beautiful Betty Page




"I don't know what they mean by an icon. I never thought of myself as being that. It seems strange to me. I was just modeling, thinking of as many different poses as possible."

"Sex is a part of love. You shouldn't go around doing it unless you are in love.."

Circles

Truth is Beauty
Beauty is Truth
Truth is not Beauty
Beauty is not Truth
Your Beauty is Truthful
Your Truth is Beautiful
Your Beauty is not Truthful
Your Truth is not Beautiful

Friday, 6 November 2009

Pete makes BABYSHAMBLES and me go crazy!





I just can't get enough! I just can't get enough!
Last night was one of the best nights of my life...easy. Babyshambles at smash and grab, PROUD was immense! I couldn;t really beleive my luck at just turning up and getting in for £8!! The venue is always amazing, the DJ's were hot stuff, the heat high, all bands were pretty good bt noting beats the atmosphere that Pete made. It was carnage. The crowd was mental. Death was imminent. It was EPIC!

The music was beautiful.
The people was beautiful.
I had glitter everywhere.
Ahhh i just don't know what to say!



Playlist:
'Fireman'
'Delivery'
'Beg, Steal Or Borrow'
'The BNP Blues'
Untitled new song
'I Wish'
'Billie Jean'
'West End Girls'
Untitled new song
'Baddie's Boogie'
'Unstookietitled'
Untitled new song
'Killamangiro'
Untitled new song
'Time For Heroes'
'Fuck Forever'

Wednesday, 4 November 2009

The evolution of a mushroom and pen lid...

Everything has to start somewhere... I atarted with a mushroom and a pen lid...










Tuesday, 3 November 2009

Manifesto... a 20 minute brainstorm and it's all about me...

Upon being asked to come up with a manifesto I found myself, as per usual, flooded with thoughts. They aren't helpful to society. Don;t really apply to anybody else. Certainly aren;t funny. Jus tan outburst of emotion. Some of them probably hugely contradict each other and other most certainly wrong. But i think this is what I beleieve. The first one... as pointed out by "reader" is most probably wrong.. because i clearly know what I think. my problem being this is constantly changing...

I don't know who I am. Try everything once.
Forget your preconceptions.
Believe in Beauty.Forget reality and believe in nonsense. Hope hurts when it isn't truthful. Trust your eyes. We all have an energy, when we die it goes to a white space. It sounds liek nothing else. I have been there. Your fantasy can be your reality you just have to go there. It's all about image. Beauty is truth, truth is beauty. Fact. I don't think any feeling is the same, the same kind of sadness never happens twice. I just like feeling everything even if it is bad. Lonliness is nothing about beign surrounded by people. How do we know our emotions feel the same as other peoples? I don't think lust is a bad thing, it is essentially love for beauty and ecstasy. Love can be lust. Sometimes it is good to pretend you don;t think; it gives you head a break. Dreams are reality. Understading yourself is about accepting that you are constantly changing and so therefore you will never understand yourself. Sex isn't bad, people just make you feel bad because of what they have been told. Self destruction is only self destruction in other peoples opinions, I hate myself for it sometimes, but I think it is just a different way of living. Thinking is confusing but unavoidable. Don't condemn yourself to be a certain way. It's all about experiences. I can't do normal conversation. I don;t aim to shock. Do we fall in love becasue we think we have to? Being who you want to be isn't that easy. Artistic intelligence is completley different to academic intelligence. Both are hard to live with. Failing is not an option unless it is deliberate. Strugglnig to feel liek you fit in just makes it feel worse- the people aren't worth it.Why do I try and make myself feel worse? Creating an image is about finding out who you are. Honesty offends people. never do nothing. Don;t be defined by any stereotypeor anything people have told you about yorself. God is not a man in the sky, spirit is energy, the universe has power. Making people worry about me is a way of connecting. Sometimes you have to emotionally rip each other apart. Destruction is about physicallising emotion. Life is experience is not about longitivity. I don't want to be perfect. Learn to have coping mechanisms that don't destroy relationships. Dance in your head forever. Be magical. Glitter. Doe sbeleiveing I am not entirely from here make me crazy? The world is essentially good becasue everything happens for a reason. Fate and Destiny. Achieve. Freedom, Truth, Beauty and Love. Create. I DON'T THINK THERE IS ANYTHING I WOULDN'T DO... IT SCARES ME!

The list goes on forever... I am essentially selfish I think... I don;t think any of these help the world. But htey were my 20 minutes.

Monday, 2 November 2009

I still want to be a pre-raphaelite...but romanticism just isn't cool anymore!

These paintings still embodies everything fantasy is or could be... open up the whole movement and the possibilities are STILL endless. Beaty isn't dead...

Ophelia Sir John Everett Millais (she has my name and I tried to be her for a very long time...i was jelous of a painting but she was teh super model of the time "lizzie")
but they just don't teach you to paint anymore...
Mermaids Waterhouse ... this exhibition actually made me stand there and cry..they are more beautiful than you can every imagine in being. (In date, techinically not a pre-raphaelite... but at heart he was all there)

Waterhouse

Waterhouse

Waterhouse

Waterhouse

Waterhouse

Rossetti
Maybe it's just magic and my obsession with fairytales but i love these paintings. I think it is a case of defining identity through fantasy... these images can still be used somehow. We aren't classical artists but all ideas start somwhere... and mine are often here.

Sunday, 1 November 2009

The notion of celebrity...

It's all about presenting an image. Portraying yourself how you want to. Striking a pose. It's all about illusion...
I don't think this means the illusion is fake.. it's your creation and therefore still part of you. You can be creating a myth, playing someone else... but you are always in there. In a way creating an illusion is taking yourself out of yourself.. you are you. No one ultmately knows who you are... but at least your showing something. Its beautiful and its obsession.